Weighing in at 2.8 pounds heavier from last weigh in which im sure can't be right. I've been counting calories meticulously. I did drink a lot of water (like almost 2 liters but that was 3 hours ago) but all I can hear is that voice in my head calling me a disgusting failure.
At work the systems were down so I didn't get as much done as I wanted. My fellow trainer said I did a lot but I didn't meet my own ideal.
Just in general im feeling like crap. Trying to keep a positive mood but really all I want to do is go find some ice cream and just accept that im always going to be fat gross and alienated.
I feel so.....I dunno. Why am I even bothering to write any of this out? I think I'll just go to sleep. Maybe when I wake up things will be better.
Someday in the 20 years I've been telling myself that it's gotta be true.
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