Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Starting over

So, I am against new years resolutions. Nobody keeps them. But, with it being a new decade...it's time for a change.

One of these things is to be more positive. Too often I get onto negativity, and I have an irritating mental issue known as bipolar, and seasonal afflictive disorder. However, I refuse to use either as an excuse. If I don't use it as an excuse for work, then why even look at it as a crutch in real life. I know bipolar people who fall back on it...and I can't let myself go there. Part of my religion (which can most accuratly described as an odd mix of Christian-Druid) is that I don't harm others. And letting my mental afflictions run rampart can hurt others. I've watched it happen to others, and it's heartbreaking.

So, I've deleted my old posts, except for my 50 goals list. Maybe having more positivity will garner me more friends....but I'm going to stop caring about that, I hope. I'm not going to sit here and beat myself up for lack of support. This road isn't going to be easy and it's unfair to expect anyone to follow around with this fight.

I might try to cuss less....but that's on my lower priority...swear words don't hurt anyone...and George Carlin is amazing....ironically, my father was at the summerfest show in Milwaukee when he was arrested onstage for doing the 7 things routine...

I'm joining a gym...since it's time for a change, and I need to stop caring about people staring at me. Just crank the music and tune them out.

Any suggestions for music? I like a little of everything so I'm open for any good suggestions...

- Posted from my iCrack...please forgive misspellings or words that make no sense due to the retarded AUTOCORRECT (I assure you, I am the daughter of a navyman, not a waterfowl enthusiast )

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